we can lovers.

love is a many splendid thing.
it lifts us up where we belong.
all we need is love.

i really love the moulin rouge song.. this is the best.. really meaningful and the words used jus really describe feelings very well.

okay, went out with J today. but i had many many (A MILLION AND ONE THINGS) in my mind.. im really burnt out inside my brain. and i feel this wedge between me and J.. its as though, we dont have anything in common anymore.. we dont have topics to talk about anymore.. we dont have time to spend with each other anymore.. we jus dont seem to click already.. im feeling super duper troubled. life was wonderful when ure in my world, and now even as you are in it, i feel numb about your presence.. why? any answers? i jus wished J could shower me with some affection.. some care.. be more of a expressive person. mayb this is ultimately the thing that will see how our relationship heads.. and the way it looks to me, really.... its bleak.

i was rather happy cuz J bought me a crumpler bag.. and it was a very nice gesture on his side. but i really would rather he have more comments when i go shopping with him, instead of i enter the shop and he enters shortly only to leave and wait outside... its a horror.. i jus feel terrible. like something's tearing me apart.

OH MOTHER FARK. haha.. im so upset cuz i cant go UK. i was suppose to go in april.. but daddy booked his tix for himself first.. FARK. i was suppose to go too.. i really wanted to go. so now u know why i wanted ur snail adds. haha. dont worry, there's always a chance.. im good at this surprise game =) cheeeeeeerrs! ahhhhhhhhh! im feelin moody and everything ard me seems to be changing too.. i need to retreat somewhere somehow. and i really need it....


SAVE THIS BITCH.